Just watched Julie & Julia

...anyone ever seen it? I would highly recommend. To me, it was a movie that inspires. "I bet I could do that....."

...my 34th birthday just passed and of course another year old, another year wiser, makes you think.....ALOT....

...When I graduated from high school in 1994...16 years ago...my whole goal was to be a Broadcast Journalist. When I failed to get into the program, I think I cried harder than when I failed my driver's license test. At the time, this was my dream. My neighbor joked that he would see me on TV and I would be the next Connie Chung.

...Ha! And what I am doing now? Customer Service for a Financial Services Company...Boring....But, you know what? It also puts food on the table and a roof over our heads. "OUR"...as in my family..that is something that was not in my Broadcast Journalist dreams when I was 18 either...who knew I would have four children, let alone BOYS...

...so I am trying not to pick on the little things in life and be grateful for what I have. Though sometimes, it is so hard when you are absolutely stuck in a job going no where. I used to think I had a job where I could get promoted but I think I have reached that crossroads where there is no more. Oh well, nothing I can do about it at the moment. I really have to just grin and bear it for at least two more years. No use in missing out on free money. (After 5 years, I am fully vested in my profit sharing and company match! WOOHOO!)

...but what do I want to do? My husband asked me that question a couple of weeks ago. I don't really know right now. I am so unsure of what kind of job would make me completely whole. Sometimes I think it would be to be some sort of party planner, fundraiser organizer, something like that. Those are the only times besides writing for a weekly paper where I have been happy with what I was doing. And weekly papers pay diddly squat so I know I will not be going back to that. It is the whole reason I left in the first place...(well that and the crappiest editor ever)

...but after watching this movie, it really made me think how blogs are like therapy for people. They get their feelings out there and project them for the whole world to see. But what is my therapy? What do I need? Even I cannot answer that question right now. If I could actually commit to writing this blog on a daily basis maybe I could answer that question myself.

...so my motivation? Inspiration? Where should life be taking me now that I am 34? What goals do I set for myself? Things I need to think about...